Year after year, thereβs something about the colder months that really jack up the volume on everything inside me. Itβs not just the weather, though the dark mornings and darker evenings donβt help. Itβs the year winding down, the calendar screaming βfour weeks left!β, βshit, no, three weeks left!β or whatever it is. Then Suddenly, everything feels like itβs on an express countdown clock. And then my brain decides to choose chaos As my brain dodges the reflective positive laps, and everything I wanted, everything I promised, and every passion project I committed to finishing, loops louder. And all those “this year Iβllβ¦β” moments play on repeatβwhen I never asked it to. I just…